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This is the oldest internet journal I have.

And oh my God, I was such a whiny teenager. All those things adults said about teenagers was true. They really do believe they know better, that they're smarter, that they're old enough to make decisions. I remember feeling right, and knowing I was right.

Now, I look back on all those old entries and cringe. I was such an sad teenager. Like an emo or a goth or something. Sometimes the "I so lonely, poor me!" act was giving me the urge to hurl.

Thank God I got out of that stage and into my semi-misanthropic I don't need people.

That was a half joke, by the way. I really don't feel the need to see everyone all the time (I should still call my friend that I've been meaning to for such a long time, but he's been meaning to too, so we both are slacking off equally--mental note, call him tomorrow) but if someone invites me to go hang out, I will not refuse. Take Friday for example. Sure, I won't have my Snape Is Innocent t-shirt to piss of the Potterheads (which would've been fun, I'm a Potterhead myself, maybe I could yell it out before the movie, the phrase of the t-shirt, not that I am a Potterhead because that'd be lame) but I'll have a good time.

At any rate, I did pick up on some interesting things while reading of my past exploits. Particularly on Cerost, which I am currently working on.

Last time I was asked to outline an epic in two weeks. This time I was given four days. I did it. I think that shows my growth. Yes, it is incomplete and needs a lot of work, but I am open to help.

I was feeling a little lost the past few days. Sometimes I feel like I am not communicating my characters effectively to everyone. I know who they are, and I thought they were getting older, but apparently they're too flawed and are throwing tantrums like children. So now, whenever I'm writing for Vira, I'm thinking of my favorite misanthropic character for help, Dr. Gregory House. He doesn't storm out of rooms, but he is a mean jerk and hilarious. While Vira isn't quite the same, if I keep in mind how he handles things, I can steer her clear of falling into the pattern. I do think an outburt from a character is natural every once in a while. Especially since Vira is known for overreacting sometimes (she started a barroom brawl because one guy grabbed her ass and the other illicited her for sex in some fashion). It is harder to write for the stoic characters like she is supposed to be, and Sern, who shouldn't say very much. I'm trying, though.

I don't think the outline is that bad. It has a lot of things that will be hammered out, but I know I can salvage this. The Nightblossom is my Serenity, I just have to stick it out. I love these characters, and I love the world they live in.

One person asked me, "Why elves?" I say why not elves? Yes, the cultural differences do not end up playing a factor in Path of the Devoted, but they will in Shadows from History (working title of the Iron Will adaptation).

To be perfectly honest, there are elves because I want to draw elves. Pointy ears! They're cool and a staple of popular fantasy. Dammit, I likes me elves.

Once I have more of it set up, and I know when I'll be working on the first chapter, I'll set a date and start making some teaser posters. Why? Because I saw it once promoting a story and I thought it was cool. It can hype me up for the story, and anyone else who is interested. I can put in silly taglines and everything, like "a quiet hero," "a caustic scoundrel," and "a sarcastic marksman." Yeah, I probably won't end up using those lines, but I'll figure something out. Doing pictures of the various groups, like Sern, Vira and Jase, then another with Celandine, Zaras and Maia.

"Searching for one of their own!" could go with the first one.

"Just trying to do their job." could go with the second.

I'm totally blue skying here, and yes, I am fully aware of how dorky and stupid this sounds. I'll still be doing teaser posters because I likes em. I can look at em and get all geared up for the comic.

I figure I will have a lot of it drawn out beforehand. Then I'll have ample reserves so that updates will always be on time. If I start with, say, the entire first chapter already drawn and ready, I can work on the second while just putting up two or three pages a week. I might go by scene if I feel it is necessary. I know that consistency is a must for success in a webcomic. I learned my lesson from Unusual Heroes first failure.

Of course, I'll need a website. I'll have to figure out that one when I come to it.

There are a lot of things I still have to do. Miles to go.

It's close to 4, and I'm going to go play FFVIII now. Yes, I still love it like nobody's business. Some things never change.

Currently, I have this, a LiveJournal, and a MySpace account.

I know nobody is reading this one anymore...Hmm...I could say whatever I want on this...

Or I could just go play my game since it's so fucking late already.

I'm gonna do that.

Phoenix Pinion	2005-11-17 @ 3:38 a.m.
This is the oldest internet journal I have. And oh my God, I was such a whiny teenager. All those things adults said about teenagers was true. They really do believe they know better, that they're smarter, that they're old enough to make decisions. I remember feeling right, and knowing I was right. Now, I look back on all those old entries and cringe. I was such an sad teenager. Like an emo or a goth or something. Sometimes the "I so lonely, poor me!" act was giving me the urge to hurl. Thank God I got out of that stage and into my semi-misanthropic I don't need people. That was a half joke, by the way. I really don't feel the need to see everyone all the time (I should still call my friend that I've been meaning to for such a long time, but he's been meaning to too, so we both are slacking off equally--mental note, call him tomorrow) but if someone invites me to go hang out, I will not refuse. Take Friday for example. Sure, I won't have my Snape Is Innocent t-shirt to piss of the Potterheads (which would've been fun, I'm a Potterhead myself, maybe I could yell it out before the movie, the phrase of the t-shirt, not that I am a Potterhead because that'd be lame) but I'll have a good time. At any rate, I did pick up on some interesting things while reading of my past exploits. Particularly on Cerost, which I am currently working on. Last time I was asked to outline an epic in two weeks. This time I was given four days. I did it. I think that shows my growth. Yes, it is incomplete and needs a lot of work, but I am open to help. I was feeling a little lost the past few days. Sometimes I feel like I am not communicating my characters effectively to everyone. I know who they are, and I thought they were getting older, but apparently they're too flawed and are throwing tantrums like children. So now, whenever I'm writing for Vira, I'm thinking of my favorite misanthropic character for help, Dr. Gregory House. He doesn't storm out of rooms, but he is a mean jerk and hilarious. While Vira isn't quite the same, if I keep in mind how he handles things, I can steer her clear of falling into the pattern. I do think an outburt from a character is natural every once in a while. Especially since Vira is known for overreacting sometimes (she started a barroom brawl because one guy grabbed her ass and the other illicited her for sex in some fashion). It is harder to write for the stoic characters like she is supposed to be, and Sern, who shouldn't say very much. I'm trying, though. I don't think the outline is that bad. It has a lot of things that will be hammered out, but I know I can salvage this. The Nightblossom is my Serenity, I just have to stick it out. I love these characters, and I love the world they live in. One person asked me, "Why elves?" I say why not elves? Yes, the cultural differences do not end up playing a factor in Path of the Devoted, but they will in Shadows from History (working title of the Iron Will adaptation). To be perfectly honest, there are elves because I want to draw elves. Pointy ears! They're cool and a staple of popular fantasy. Dammit, I likes me elves. Once I have more of it set up, and I know when I'll be working on the first chapter, I'll set a date and start making some teaser posters. Why? Because I saw it once promoting a story and I thought it was cool. It can hype me up for the story, and anyone else who is interested. I can put in silly taglines and everything, like "a quiet hero," "a caustic scoundrel," and "a sarcastic marksman." Yeah, I probably won't end up using those lines, but I'll figure something out. Doing pictures of the various groups, like Sern, Vira and Jase, then another with Celandine, Zaras and Maia. "Searching for one of their own!" could go with the first one. "Just trying to do their job." could go with the second. I'm totally blue skying here, and yes, I am fully aware of how dorky and stupid this sounds. I'll still be doing teaser posters because I likes em. I can look at em and get all geared up for the comic. I figure I will have a lot of it drawn out beforehand. Then I'll have ample reserves so that updates will always be on time. If I start with, say, the entire first chapter already drawn and ready, I can work on the second while just putting up two or three pages a week. I might go by scene if I feel it is necessary. I know that consistency is a must for success in a webcomic. I learned my lesson from Unusual Heroes first failure. Of course, I'll need a website. I'll have to figure out that one when I come to it. There are a lot of things I still have to do. Miles to go. It's close to 4, and I'm going to go play FFVIII now. Yes, I still love it like nobody's business. Some things never change. Currently, I have this, a LiveJournal, and a MySpace account. I know nobody is reading this one anymore...Hmm...I could say whatever I want on this... Or I could just go play my game since it's so fucking late already. I'm gonna do that. ^
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